Willing To Go To Any Lengths....

Ok Ive made this a topic on a forum I visit as well as one of the other blogs I do.

What Does it mean to go to any Lengths?

For Me it means beyond all I can think or imagine and just do because someone said it would work.

Am I willing to go to any Lengths?

Truthfully No I am not. Especially not always!
It isnt that I think everything should come to me.
But sometimes yes if I cant get to it then yes somehow help should come to me, I think... somehow.
Its Not always easy Just Not drinking Just not picking up a pill or a joint or what have you.
But staying cleean N sober to me is not just about not Picking up!
Its whats happening inside my heart Mind will and emotions.
No I dont always take control over them and many times yes I imagine I let them control me.
But I can say I do have some hope today. Yes I am stronger probably than I think I am.
Ive lived the worse life before, and I sure as heck dont plan on going back anytime soon.

So I will do what I feel comfortable in doing and pray for the willingness to go to any lengths
on a daily basis, but maybe just pray just for today.

I do want to be happy joyous, and free.

Please feel free to comment back on this subject and share whats happening with youand going to any Lengths :-)