What Are My Choices?

I can finally admit I am not young anymore.
I cant afford to play stupid.
My health depends on me making the right choices and while Iam saying still in future for some choices it will be the near future.
I have remained abstinent from drugs or alcohol and I am still on this fourth step but I aim to get it done this week. I want to have it done so that I can go lay down my next thing and that is my nicotine.
I want a healthy life and to make good choices for myself.

My sponsor is very happy with the choices I am making and even though for most I have fought him on but in the end I made the choices.
I made the choice to move from an efficiency to a one bedroom. For me that was a very healthy choice so that Iam not cramped my second choice is to commit to it by getting rid of boxes and stuff to store junk I dont need ...getting rid of the clutter.

For me holding on to clutter is the same as allowing that clutter into my mind to where I cannot even think right.
Eating the right kinds of foods,getting rest, drinking enough water , exercising ...and there comes a point where after you have drawn a line for yourself that you have to be accountable for what you say you are going to do.
I believe in many ways this cancause us to hold on to our victim mode if we dont follow through because ultimately when we dont follow through with healthy choices to keep the promises we make for ourselves we end up hurting ourself and it manifest in to the physical realm in which we dont do what we need to in order to take care of ourselves.
Today I will be good to myself and love me.

Hot Off The Press!

I have updated the side bar with several links for recovery
A picture of Carol Ann Preston's Workbook "Remembering Who We Are"
I own a copy and I recommend it.
I have also added IOCC link and Their challenge (Improving our Conscious Contact)
I hope to be featuring and adding my own answers here in this blog for IOCC question of the month
I have added The Monty Man's Radio station Link and Gcast with the podcast of the Saturdays shows of Carol Ann Preston and Monty

July QUESTION FROM IOCC

July Question

"Sought Through Prayer "
What are some of your favorite prayers? How have the helped your recovery? Do you have a certain prayer that you always use or do you use many?

Answer one or all of these questions:

The Serenity Prayer
The Third Step Prayer
The Seventh Step Prayer
Prayer of St Francis
These are a few of my favorite Prayers and also I use Psalms 91 as a Protection Prayer and add My name in it to personalize it for me.
How has it Helped my recovery while admit I havent everyday or thanked God every day
But as I am getting better I try to say the third prayer alot to open myself up to the God of my understanding and to be accountable for myself today whether good bad or indifferent the actions I choose today are on me.

How The Serenity prayer has helped usually after I cross a line ...lets say I screwed up and went on my emotion of being angry and taking it out on others , well sometimes it has helped when I know I have to face up to it to say the serenity prayer because it helps me remember to focus on me instead of the other person so I dont blow up again.

Theres a prayer in the Big Book that really simple too when we think to use these prayers
God save me from being angry (simplest prayer but worth more than anything in the world if you are going in turbulent waters )

What Are your Dreams and Hopes?

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a quote by James Dean

Time To Start Reintroducing

Hi I am JD Alcoholic and Addict

God is whom I choose to call my Higher Power
He is Greater than you or I and has sustained me in my sobriety and clean time in spite of myself.
My Date of Sobriety is August 28th,2004.

Iam currently in the middle of my fourth step hoping to finish before my 4th year anniversary and right now not really making too much progress towards that.
My life situations are very different as I go to a wound center each week to have my legs and feet wrapped.

I have a group that is my homegroup that I attend on wednesday evenings and is a speaker meeting. Its what is working for me right now and I get to hear everyone's ESH (experience, strength, and hope).

I came to the grips of my disease in fear and terror and lots of pain physically emotionally and even spiritually.

The difference is today is that the pain is a little less and I dont drink I go to meetings I call my sponsor and other friends in the program some online and offline and get reminders on where
Iam in the steps and what its going to take to get past even more.

The God of my understanding wants healing hope faith love and life flowing through me today.
at close to my 1 year anniversary I lost my Dad and did not drink this to me was amazing as I look back on it. Shortly after my Dads death I was suicidal and my mom came and got me.

I stayed with her for a while and soon it would be that I would be moving out of the house I was living in and some other people came to my rescue and soon it would be that I learned to live on my own again.

I have now lived in the same place on my own for 2 years and I just moved in the same bldg to a 1 bedroom apt from the efficiency I had. I never thought I would be able to do it. God has changed me in these two years and some of the lessons I would rather not repeat or do over again. There is so much to share of my hope and faith recovery and God Jesus The Holy Spirit.

While I have not always been faithful to God He sure has been to me even when I wasnt sure He was around he Had people on the scene.
Easter of 2008 was another lowly time I got a call from someone who said they were on their way and we would go to a meeting.
We sure did we went to a hospital to see a guy in not so good shape and I found gratitude and it saved my life that day as did the person who picked me up.

Since then its been about recovery though I have slipped into some self pity from time to time but its much better than it used to be.

With Love and Respect To All
JD

There is a solution ....there is no elevator use the steps