Today's A New Day

Today's A New Day...

Last night I moved an entertainment center and tv to the hallway to start
redecorating and give my room a make over- spring cleaning to do for the last five
years I have missed doing it.I am feeling pretty good today and trying to stay
motivated while not overworking myself.

The plan for the day is therapy and eating a few good meals as well as taking
much needed time for myself to relax some too.

I really want to love myself and feel that I am worth it for a change.
I felt a break down yesterday and today is so much better, though the pain is still much somewhere inside me and if I study it too long I am afraid I will not stop my heart from breaking.

To give of myself is very important. No one has to face me except me and to live with myself
can only happen as I allow myself to heal to bring forth life with my words and actions.
I am a great believer in the Bible as well and feel that though maybe not everyone believes it,
it is my right to do so. Its what has helped hold me up in times of trouble. The words have given me comfort and at times when I have allowed God to be so close to me is when I can truly heal.
I really want that more than anything today. For if my life were cut short I would want to be remembered as the man who believed and not doubted. There is so much to do and not enough time for it all so it seems I pray today goes smoother and maybe I find more blessings in today than I have the whole year thus far.

Hopefully write more later today ...Gotta get a move on!